Living Proof Live

I drove to Lubbock today in the weeeeeee morning hours with my sweet friend Amy to see Beth Moore speak.  That woman is a dynamic powerhouse in a teeny tiny body...


It is jaw-dropping to worship the Lord with 9,000 women!  It just amazes me how the Lord shines his sweet face on me during worship sometimes!  I felt like he had a spotlight on me at one point...not in the "everybody look at this hot mess" kind of way, but the "the LORD make his face shine on you and be gracious to you" kind of way in Numbers 6:25.


Last night, I had a dream that JT left me for another woman.  In my dream, it took me a while to figure out what was going on. (I thought he just went away for an extended time)  Anyway, when it finally dawned on me what he'd done, I came undone....SCREAMED at him (I'm the silent type when I get mad, so not like me at all!) I was heartbroken (you know the kind where you actually ache...really, really, ache) & FURIOUS all at the same time.  
I almost never have that dream and really don't have jealous insecurities about him finding someone else, so I was so confused when I woke up about why I would dream that...


So when she started out this morning, she talked about having the same type of dream...and led into the FACT that God will give me a dream to put me in the state He needs me & open emotions in me so that I can be in the place to really HEAR what He has to say to me....
Don't you find that absolutely fascinating?!?!  So, I was feeling a little alone (even though the dream is NOT reality), needing to be loved on...
Here's what my precious Lord had for me today...

• In the past 6 months or so, I have found myself asking God for a heart friend(s)...friends that will tell me what I need to hear, not what they think I want to hear.  Friends that I don't have to put on a front for, friends with a heart that LONGS to run after God's will for their life.       ...love one another deeply, from the heart. 1 Peter 1:22.  I've pleaded with Him....show me...are they already in my life, or do I need to search for them?  One of her main points today was that we were created by God for good company.  He has called us "to pursue righteousness, faith, love and peace (the kind of peace that comes with a settled heart before God), along with those who call on the Lord out of a pure heart. 2 Timothy 2:22   God, in such a personal way, gave me a check list for the friends that are going to push me closer to Him!!! 

• No matter what God's calling for my life is, it CAN NOT be fulfilled if I'm by myself.  He will place the people in my life, at the right time, to bring glory to the kingdom of Heaven. I just want to be sure that I'm letting him...it's so easy for me to stay in my sweet little bubble.

• Jesus has called me to be unhindered.  He most certainly did not put me on this earth to blend in.  When others are around me, can they "taste and see that the Lord is good?"

• This was a BIG one for me:  God is good all the time, and when it appears that he's not, it's because he's GREAT! He keeps secret things secret for a reason.  Just fall into and trust that He's good, even when you can't wrap your mind around it all.

• Finally, when this is all said and done, will my life story say, "I love you, Jesus!"

I wish that every single one of you could have been there with me today!  

Are you loving others deeply from your heart?  Are you letting Him WORK IT OUT in your life?  If you were there today, I'd love to hear what God spoke over you today!